11:21 am

Went to bed around two, up by nine. I was actually up by six but I made myself go back to bed. The "sleeping all day" depression doesn't compare to this. This is the "can't sleep" phase. I'm too anxious to sleep or even relax much. At the same time, the lack of motivation linked to depression keeps me from accomplishing much with the nervous energy.
There is a lot more to depression than low moods. Even body aches are associated with it. Excessive guilt is linked to it as well. It is good to educate yourself if you have some health problem. I don't "blame" everything on my depression but I understand that alot of the things holding me back from a normal life are a result of it, not a result of some shortcoming on my part.
Knowledge of yourself is good. It helps you to be strong and self-assured on the inside because people wil spout some crazy shit on the outside about who they think you are or what your problem is.
I would be a fool if I rejected all counsel but I'm selective when I listen to the opinions of others about myself. Then there are the times that you have to listen to the message and ignore the messenger. God sends some unlikely messengers.
There is a twelve-step program in which they say "Take what you like and leave the rest." A good philosophy.