Babies
One of my best friends just gave birth to a baby boy, her second child. I am really happy for her. I hear that my cousin is also pregnant.
I am also feeling melancholy in a way. I always feel this way when someone in my circle has a baby. I am 99% sure that I will not be having any babies. Most of the time I'm ok with it. It's not the way I pictured my life, being childless, but alot of things have happened to me as an adult that I hadn't pictured. Life is uncertain that way.
Still, I must pause and cry for awhile for the babies that will never be born to me and for the reason that when I die, there will be nothing left on this earth that was a part of me. It's like being the last of the dinosaurs.
I am extinct.
There's more than that but I don't feel like dwelling on it tonight. If I were still drinking, this would be a good night to get really fucked-up.
posted by Dreamspinner @ 7:39 PM
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2 Comments:
wow. thanks So much for sharing your feelings about this. I, too, am struggling with the idea that i may never give birth. it's a highly emotional issues and i appreciate knowing that someone else relates.
rubyprincess
Thank you, Ruby. I'm glad to know there are other women who have similar issues. Sometimes society is just so "family orientated" and I feel positively left out.
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