Total Frustration. Again

There are so many things I want to do. I'm not talking spoiled brat things like go to Tahiti for vacation.
I just want curtains on my windows. I want some lawn decorations. I want a car.
I want to get my bills cleared enough to where I can begin investing.
I want to cut costs.
I cannot. I can easier pull a monkey out of my ass than even begin to accomplish any fucking thing.
I can't even afford to pay the deductible on my health insurance which means I am paying through the nose for health insurance I can't use.
I'm telling you, if you're a young person. If you have medical problems, get treatment immediatley. Don't let yourself get so fried that you have to receive the pittance that is disability...unless you enjoy being ground down inch by inch every day, watching your hopes and aspirations dissipate like mist in the hot wind.