HBO No Mo', Cryin'

The HBO fluke is over. Which is fine. I think I already watched the good movies they have. Mystic River sucked, btw. Too much atmosphere, too little thought.
My birthday is in seven days. I will be spending it alone. Maybe that is why I have been so emotional. Nothing like a birthday to bring out the desire for morbid reflection upon one's failures.
Picture Ozzy video "No More Tears" ...that's me right now. Surprised that I don't just float right on out of here.
There are three things I need to do.
1. I need to focus on the positive.
2. I need to accept my life as it is.
3. I need to seriously re-evaluate my goals and come up with some that are more reasonable. Something like "I will roll all those pennies and put them into the bank." This will replace "I will save and invest so that I may be fairly secure in my old age." The plus side being I will have enough money for the dogfood I'll be eating when I'm older.
hmmmm....
Nope, not ready to implement 1 and 2 yet. Not at all.