I Feel Like There's A Hole In My Heart

...and nothing can heal it. The world has turned shades of gray with a sickly winter sun giving me no joy or peace. I feel like all good feelings have been stripped away and there is no pleasure to be wrought from life. In short, I am tired of being alive today.
There's something I'm searching for, some feeling of tranquility and I can't find it. Don't ask me to pray. God seems distant, remote like the light of an ancient star. There is no good to be found in my world today and even the usual thoughtless pleasures have let me down.
Humanity is empty, without reason or meaning...dust motes hang in the air and taunt me.
All is stillness, dideased and impure, what a rotten life I've been assigned to. I hate being alive.