Although...

So my life isn't entirely meaningless and empty. I do need to fill it up a bit more though.
I was thinking back on how busy I used to be with work, friends, family, church. Not alot of time there to dwell on things and possibly eat alot while I "dwell."
If my life had turned out normal, I'd still be working and I'd be raising some kids too. It seems like that is what has replaced the activities of the single years in the lives of my young friends(from those single years...we are now scattered through out the country). My older friends(those I'd met when they were already in their fifties and up), well, most of them are dead now. A result of aging or being unhealthy. We were all sober alcoholics so they had their extra share of health problems related to past overindulgence in booze and died off accordingly.
So, since I am so goddamned unique, I need to find some unique things to do with my life since I'm not dutifully squeezing out puppies to carry this planet into the future. Neither am I a pillar of the church, baking and tithing my way to heaven.
I think the first step is to get the medication issue straightened out...then I can consider what to fill my life with.