It's 4:53am

I cannot fucking sleep. I would just pack up and check myself into the psych ward except there is no-one to take care of my birds. And I fucking hate the psych ward.
Not to mention that it's far away in another town which means I would have to deal with the ER in this town and they are a bunch of assholes.
I'm all alone and I'm trying to be strong. But it's so hard. There's no-one to turn too.